It's Not Really Feeling Like Christmas

I usually don't have any problem getting into the Christmas spirit, despite my best efforts to resist. But this year, things are just different. It's not that I'm away from my family - this will be the 4th year not celebrating with them. It's just the way things are going right now.

I left a good job because it was time to move on. I'd been there 2 1/2 years. I took another job, but in the interim was in a car accident and went home to get a new car, and on the way back took a detour to visit my sister and her preemie baby. So I get back, start the new job, and it's really not for me. It affected my attendance, and if there were anything to do, it would have affected my job performance too. I got a great offer for what would have been the perfect job, but after I turned in my notice and was just about to leave the house to go to work, I find out that the new job will quite possibly not happen because of embezzlement. Great, just what I need.

So now it's the holiday season and I have no job. I have enough money to pay my rent for January, but after that I don't know what I'm gonna do other than pound the pavement. Right now I just need to scream and vent and win the lottery or something. Too bad they don't have a lottery in Nevada.